I've been sort of walking around the house the last couple of days wondering about a person's easiest choice.
It's a phrase that Stephanie threw out there like it was everyday conversation a few months ago, and it's just been rolling around in my world.
"What's his easiest choice?"
"What's my easiest choice?"
It's a question where you 'want' to think that the answer to it is something 'good' but where the answer is usually something more along the lines of unhappiness. Anger. Poverty. Despair. Failure.
When I first started looking there, I truly didn't want to know what mine or anyone elses' easiest choices were.
Ugh! Brutal! Who wants to know that stuff?!
You can't un-see stuff after you see it and what was I going to do with all that awareness??
And anyway - isn't 'being positive' and 'asking for the possibilities' what we want to do here?
For what reason would we spend any time looking at all...
I saw my mother for the first time in awhile yesterday.
And I went into it ready to... whatever!
But definitely ready to use the tools.
And one of the things I've been really practicing, when I'm around these super trigger-ish people for me, is staying in and having and choosing, my reality.
Now, that is an interesting practice, as my reality isn't solid or one thing, and it has nothing to do with stating my truth or any of that stuff.
It's an energetic practice, most of all.
A practice where I don't go into their head or their world, trying to find out where I'm wrong.
You know that moment? When their face goes a little funny or the energy of the whatever changes, and all of a sudden you're in there, trying to sort out 'what went wrong'?
Which is always, always, always the place where you're trying to find what YOU did wrong?
Yea. I stayed out of that.
And what I really practiced was just being with them. Just as they are. And being interesting point of...
"Living well and spending less."
When I was posting this video and tagging it, I found that tag.
And after pausing incredulously, I realized for the 82nd time this week, how different I am with creating money.
I add houses and trips and classes to my life before I ever have the money.
And then I create to have them.
Now, I'm not yet rolling out my course on financial awareness, because there are MANY aspects of this money thing that I am still learning and choosing and creating for myself.
But creating money seems to be something I've been good at and keep getting better at - and today, during a conversation with a client this morning, I really got what this thing is I do and "why" it works.
It seems a little backwards.
I use it ALL the time.
It's an every 10 seconds sort of choosing thing that keeps me in touch with what I really want.
Financial awareness was supposed to be about getting my receipts in order.
But as I was changing my shirt today, and looking down at the receipts on my floor, I suddenly got that they are actually the smallest piece.
Every day that me and Melanie and Stephanie get together, we open up and look at areas of our life that I had no idea were even related.
What we'd like to create as our future.
The systems we can put in place to support that future.
The people we can add to free us up to create it.
The way of functioning in the world that is us not just playing a role on TV - but being everything that we are in totality.
It's crazy. And amazing :)
Who or what could you add to your life today that would begin to actualize a totally different future right away?
Did you know that if you're frustrated in any process, that you are very likely missing information?
We found SO much more info today that is gonna make this financial process so much more fun.
It seems that choosing to create things leads to asking more questions so that you can create it!
Did you know that keeping your books isn't just because you HAVE to?
Or so you can pay your taxes?
It also seems that if you're willing to be saavy, those numbers can also speak sweet somethings in your ear.
Check this out!!
So, Day 4 of this financial awareness journey finds me on a rock :)
Sometimes sitting ON the earth settles things for me.
And one of the biggest awarenesses I"m having, post-rock, is how much I tend to go to the not-fun of something, rather than the wondering about the how-can-it-be-fun of something!
Stephanie, Melanie, and I had an amazing money meeting this morning, and Steph really opened my awareness up to the possibilities of knowing my numbers, rather than the drudgery of having to produce them.
And I carried that awareness in with me to my meeting with the accountant... and will wonder some more about systems when I meet with the bookkeeper...
But I'll leave you with this:
What if your business numbers could give you information that could incite and invite you to create differently and more?
It turns out my point of view about sorting receipts is exactly the same point of view I have about boiling water.
While I was boiling water for coffee this morning, it occurred to be that I would be hungry later, and I thought to boil water for pasta as well, so that I could just toss the noodles together with sauce later.
Immediately my mind went to "Ugh. That takes too long."
Which is when I realized that that was the same point of view I had about my receipts.
Which was why they were still on my bedroom floor.
The truth was, it only took about 10 minutes to boil pasta water, and while it was boiling, I made my coffee, answered some emails, wet and dried my hair, and made a video.
It truly was - just a point of view.
Gary Douglas talks about writing a book in 20 min a day segments.
And that if you continually do that, the book will be written.
How much do I procrastinate doing the things that will get things done while making myself wrong for the procrastinating while not doing...
It doesn't look like just one video a day is actually going to work for me. :)
Because I was showering, and realizing I needed more of a map of how my money could flow to make it more ease on me.
And as I drew it, it became more clear about where I could get more clear.
Please! If you know anything else about this, YOU draw me a map!
And Day 2.5 and counting.... onwards!! :)
I recently had dinner with a friend and her husband who never let their checking account get below something like $50 million dollars.
I was like, what?!
And then I went to all the reasons and justifications for THEM being able to do that and NOT me.
That's when I realized I had another choice.
I started really looking at my financial reality and in the last several weeks, really actively started asking what it would take to change it.
My current financial reality is: it's ok with me if my bank account gets to $0.
Because.... I know I can create more.
It's ok with me to rack up my credit cards.
Because..... I know I can outcreate that.
I'd never looked at how much I'd hemmed myself in with all my reasons and unwillingness to look at them.
What if $10K in my acounnt was the baseline instead of $0?
What if, having a system for receipts, and a bookkeeper and an accountant that know how to work with "people like me", adds more to my life?
I wonder. :)
I wrote you a love letter with lots of links. It will be like you subscribed to Netflix but with my face all over it.