A NOTE FROM CHRISTEL

I'm so glad you're here. It means there's 'something' you're aware of that is more than what you've had so far.

Right before Access found me, I was newly separated, alone and lost. I was 38 and ready to change it all. Two marriages in and soon two divorces, when I looked back on my life, all I could see was sad and hard.

We were a religious family.

First, culty - a metaphysical blender religion where being a vegetarian and wearing the right colour to get the right vibration meant that we might not have to come back to this planet next time.

Second, Christian -  in a way that led me first to China for a 3 month mission trip and then to Bible school, at 25, for a degree in Theology. 

My mom & dad argued violently. One of them screaming at me to call the police was not uncommon. I was a walking wide-eyed adrenaline pump.

After 13 years and 5 kids, she finally called the police to escort him out of the house, and for a little while it was more peaceful. But it didn't take long for it to get worse. Six months into his absence, I told my mom about the sexual abuse. She believed me and acted swiftly. And so, my teen years marked the shift in our lives that I'll call the mental-health-therapy-years where things got really bad.

My mom became a vigilante for 'healthy' relating and behavior. "Body limits" and "sexually appropriate behavior" became normal terms in our house as we policed each other for being 'appropriate' and stretched our new-found skills of 'feeling our feelings' and 'asking for our needs to be met'. 

Emotional abuse became normal in the name of 'mental health', and we all struggled. Screaming and sobbing were natural occurrences amongst all of us, and we would huddle together or hide in our books for any reprieve.

I finally left for Bible School, and at 27, as I graduated, I decided I wanted to marry, and did -  to the one guy around me that I figured would be ok. He was a dreamer with a porn problem, but he was my closest friend.

During the 'married years', I opened and ran a pizzeria and a landscaping company. And changed husbands to husband number two.

I cried and struggled all the time. All.the.time. I journaled and cried. Often. When you read them back, you read that I was sure that I was just a sad person. Some people were happy people, and I was just one of the sad ones.

I had no idea how to help myself. I had done two different kinds of religion, 5+ different kinds of therapy, I'd tried AA, breath work, and during my second marriage was seeing a nutritionist. 

But by 36 I was face down in our front lawn, sobbing my heart out, planning to go upstairs, run a bath, and do that black-out-drinking thing so I could drown. I hit total, utter bottom. 

A small voice stopped me that day enough to allow the torrent to subside. And that next day, a new friend offered me a session with a person. But that moment, and that day, changed everything.  I knew I had to find whatever it was going to take to restore me to me. 

Two years later, Access found me. I got my Bars run for the first time. It was staggering. I got off the table feeling 10,000 lbs lighter. Floating. In 90 minutes, we changed things that had taken me years before, and the most notable thing was - they stayed different.

No one had ever told me that I KNEW. That I was aware. That 99% of that awareness wasn't even mine. That feelings and things were creations and not things I had to make real for me. That I had just been a target for some really mean & insane people.That I was stronger than I'd ever acknowledged.

Until Access Consciousness®.

And after one BARS® session, I knew something different. In five sessions, I was able to change the constant over-analyzing that had plagued me with headaches & unbelievable inner conflict for the last 38 years. In 1 class, I got enough tools to be able to choose the Foundation class, which up until that moment had felt like a pipe dream. And after 1 Foundation class, I changed the trajectory of my entire life.

In 8 months I became an Access Consciousness® Certified Facilitator.

I don't know how else to describe to you how much the tools have recovered me. My life today is unrecognizable from what it was.

I have 15 times'ed my annual income. I travel the world to facilitate classes that change people's lives. I have an online business & presence that is constantly expanding and reaching people and the magic that keeps occurring for them - it's just the most rewarding thing I've ever done.

I teach classes all over. I facilitate global online programs and calls. I am the space for people to choose and be more of them. I author. I coach with other business owners.

And I LIVE.

I live.

Coming from being a 'sad person' to who I am today was an absolute impossibility without this incredible body of work called Access Consciousness. There aren't even enough words in the English language to express the level of gratitude in my world for Access.  For Gary.  For Dain. For all of my kick-ass facilitator friends who are out there creating more life.

So.

If you've ever known that something else MUST be possible - that there has to be something MORE…. You're right. You know. 

 I wonder what I can contribute to you?

💋 Christel